“she will light up the world” about a year and a half ago, i tuned into creative live and watched brooke shaden. i had fallen in love with her work and never thought i could even attempt anything like it. her class literally changed my life. she was sooo genuine, inspiring and open i learned not just techniques to do conceptual art but she lit a fire of creativity inside me that became front and center and took over my thoughts…. Read more »

“in the dark a light appears” where do i begin? something fantastic, amazing, unbelievable and life changing has happened! we all know i am a bit obsessed with the photographer brooke shaden. not only is she a phenomenal awe-inspiring photographer but it was HER creative live class last year that got me to create art photography again. (since i stopped after college.) it didn’t end there, her posts are soo incredibly humble, motivational, encouraging and inspiring that they helped me keep… Read more »

“lost my way and i can’t get back” she always had suffered a little from depression and anxiety from time to time since she was a kid. but she could always bounce out. she could be happy. somehow in the past few years she has fallen deeply into this hole and didn’t realize how far she fallen. depression/anxiety is a weird thing. those who do not have it can not really understand it. this current of negative thoughts and worry… Read more »

i warn you now, i hate capital letters, i am not a good writer and i ramble. this is going to be raw and emotional as i am right now in this moment. i am not holding back. so. today. yeah. you know i decided to put the whole worrying about getting pregnant on hold till we get to san diego sometime later this year. why? because this horrible little area i am in has barely any resources, an ob-gyn… Read more »

{8/52} “something i can never have” My favorite dreams of you still wash ashore. Scraping through my head ’till I don’t want to sleep anymore…. I’m down to just one thing. And I’m starting to scare myself. I just want something. I just want something I can never have…-trent reznor, nine inch nails ‘something i can never have’ i always wanted to be a mom. to have a family. i never anticipated however that it might not come to pass…. Read more »

{8/52} “take to the sky” “I just want a little passion To hold me in the dark I know I’ve got some magic Buried deep in my heart, yeah But my priest says You ain’t saving no souls My father says You ain’t making any money My doctor says You just took it to the limit And here I stand With this sword in my hand You can say it one more time What you don’t like Let me hear… Read more »

{6/52} “when eating an elephant” i am not an artist who can take what others suggest and make an image. my work has to come from me for me to actually think and create it. i have had some ideas given to me but drawn total blanks trying to make it work. it’s frustrating as some of these ideas were amazing. recently however, a dear friend of mine spoke to me of a quote that she held onto through a… Read more »

{5/52} “the muse held aloft by the encouragement of others” en·cour·age  (n-kûrj, -kr-) tr.v. en·cour·aged, en·cour·ag·ing, en·cour·ag·es 1. To inspire with hope, courage, or confidence; hearten. 2. To give support to; foster 3. To stimulate; spur i am not the most self confident person. for whatever reason, i have only felt confident in myself when i am told by others that i am good. i know this is not a good thing. however, i wanted to take a moment and express how grateful i am for… Read more »

{3/52}”absence of faith” today’s post is a double hitter not only is this pic part of my 52 week project, but i am also using it for my “get in the pic” blog circle for this month. (for those not in the know, a blog circle is a group of photographers that photograph based on a theme and each links to someone in the group so when YOU the viewer clicks through the links you’ll eventually end up back here.)… Read more »

{1/52} “held by worry” with this image, i am starting a 52 week photo project. it will challenge me to become more creative and to actively create artwork every week. time and time again i put aside making art for “life”. how quickly i forget my life includes art. all of my art derives from thoughts, feelings, emotions, and all the chaos in my head. it is my way to get it out. it is almost like a therapy for me. well,… Read more »