“weaving oneself’s cocoon until the lover’s return” “As her lover left for the sea her soul ached more then she could take the world seemed to wither and die color seeped out of everything time still moved on slowly, dragging from her heart a cocoon she began to weave a sort of death, a suspension from living wrapping herself inside of their memories to hide away from the feelings, the loneliness, the emptiness and on the day of her lover’s return she’ll rise out… Read more »

“this sea of my longing“ “call the navy back for i have created a new ocean from the tears i shed waiting on your return surrounded by this sea of my longing perhaps it will carry you home to me”   Soon my husband will be on deployment again and lately i have been thinking about the loneliness that comes during it. i love him so much and knowing there will be months without him always hurts to think about… Read more »

“when wishes fall into place” So here we are. MY BIGGEST ANNOUNCEMENT YET! I am PREGNANT! After three years of trying and trying, of NOTHING happening, after one miscarriage, countless tears and heartache, of shying away from anyone who had a growing belly, after being told to stop trying so I can focus on treating my depression it finally came to be. At first I was in shock. (and may still be) Then I just knew it wouldn’t last. But… Read more »

“the fault in chasing paper”   Here I find myself at a bit of a crossroads. However, I put myself here and I put myself here on purpose this time. As you know or may not know “starving artist” is a common term and sometimes pretty accurate in describing how hard it is to make a living as an artist. I majored in photography quite a while ago. Graduation happened and real life came in with no hesitation and about as… Read more »

“the time to fly has come”   so last month, i issued a challenge/inspiration prompt/contest. i asked people to listen to lana del rey’s “i can fly” song and create an image inspired by it. my images reflect my moods and lately my mood has been about change and changing. i feel like this song has really hit that point home for me. i had the amazing opportunity to meet a fabulous photographer i knew online for forever in person… Read more »

“a change from within” last night, i was fortunate to exhibit my work in the oceanside artwalk in oceanside,ca.  it was my first time showing in california and it was a wonderful night! i also want to thank everyone who came out to the artwalk! at the event i revealed two new pieces, this piece titled, “a change from within” being one of them. both pieces are very different but are along the same theme…MAKING CHANGES.  with my health issues and… Read more »

“facing the sea of possibilities” from the journey series here is a new image in the journey series titled, “facing the sea of possibilities.” i am so excited for this piece! for those that have been following along, i have been making changes and coming out of my dark place. there are set backs of course but i am beginning to feel alive again with possibilities and more hope then i had in a long time. i am hyper with… Read more »

depression, smile, maniac

“smile, the worst is yet to come” where to begin? new years has always brought people excitement but for me it has always brought feelings of dread. fear of growing older and things changing. of everyone being closer to death. things falling apart and other things going away. this new years i find myself at a crossroads i brought myself to. in the past few weeks i have drop out of social media, pulled away from family and friends and struggled… Read more »

So I recently got on facebook and asked people to ask me anything and you all asked me some amazing questions! so here it is, enjoy! What emotions do you go through when doing a project? oh wow let me think…it depends. Usually when I edit I am pretty giddy and hyper because it makes me happy to work on photography. When I use a model, I am pretty hyper and excited because seriously photography makes me truly and completely happy. I… Read more »

handy andy pandy photography

54/365 “my creative process” like many of you, i love following tons of photographers. sometimes, i even get to start a friendship with photographers whose work i love to follow which is extremely awesome! so i decided to interview a few of these amazing people to slightly crack their minds open and peek inside their creative madness. for my first interview i, of course, had to go bother the incredibly funny and extremely talented handy andy pandy of handy andy pandy… Read more »